September is Leukemia Awareness Month: In Memory of My Son

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On March 10, 2016 at 2:40AM, my son…
my handsome, loving, kind, caring and wonderful son, passed away. 
Acute Myeloid Leukemia ripped him from this world at the age of 23.  

I really did think Colt would beat cancer and that he would be here for many more years.  But no, cancer decided it wanted to win…and it won in 31 days.   

 
Colt died only 31 days after being diagnosed.  
31 DAYS!  
 
All the medical technology and medicine and treatments could not save him.
 I feel the doctors gave us false hope and that makes me angry.
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Colt’s very first photo, November 8, 1992

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Colt’s very last photo.  March 9, 2016

 I knew that leukemia would kill him, someday but not 31 days after being diagnosed.

I miss Colt so much. 
The pain of losing him is so deeper than anything I have ever felt. There are no words to even begin to describe how I feel.  A large piece of my heart and soul died in Dallas when Colt passed. I am so very sorry I did not get there in time to say good bye…regret and guilt eat me alive some days.

Every day life is hard without Colt.  I miss his wonderful smile and his laugh. I miss hearing him say “Hi Mama”.  I miss talking to him and I miss hearing his voice. I miss hearing “I love Mama!”.  I miss the “good morning”, “good night” and “I miss you Mama”, text.  
Hell I miss everything about my precious son.
 Most days, I feel like a robot, just going through the motions of each day.  
I do my best stay busy to keep the overwhelming emotions from taking me over. 
My heart and soul ache to the core.
 
Colt is now home with me.  
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Colt’s Ashes Photo (c)2016 Shannon G. Wamsley

 

 

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Happy National Pet Day!

Happy National Pet Day from Shelby and I!

Photos (c)2018 Shannon G. Wamsley

Happy National Love Your Pet Day!

From Shelby and I, to all the pet owners out there…Happy National Love Your Pet Day! (I love my pet every day!)


Photos (c)2018 Shannon G. Wamsley

 

#GivingTuesday

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“#GivingTuesday is a global giving movement that has been built by individuals, families, organizations, businesses and communities in all 50 states and in countries around the world. Millions of people have come together to support and champion the causes they believe in and the communities in which they live.  We have two days for getting deals – Black Friday and Cyber Monday. On #GivingTuesday, we have a day for giving back. Together, people are creating a new ritual for our annual calendar.

#GivingTuesday is the opening day of the giving season: a reminder of the “reason for the season.” Every act of generosity counts, and each means even more when we give together. #GivingTuesday includes people of all ethnicities, religions and backgrounds. Together, millions of people demonstrate our common capacity to give.

#GivingTuesday is a celebration of America’s greatest traditions: generosity, entrepreneurialism, community. Everyone has something to give. You can give time or expertise, monetary donations large or small, simple acts of kindness, food or clothing.”

Read more about #GivingTuesday at www.givingtuesday.org.
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A few organizations I like to donate to are:

Coulee Region Humane Society.

Web site at www.couleehumane.com/

Facebook at www.facebook.com/couleehumane/

#GivingTuesday fundraiser on Facebook HERE.

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Stray Rescue of St. Louis.

Web site is www.strayrescue.org

Facebook at www.facebook.com/StrayRescue/

Donations can be made at www.strayrescue.org/givingtuesday.

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Promoting Animal Welfare in North Carolina (PAWNC)

Their web site is www.pawnc.org/

Facebook at www.facebook.com/pawnc/

#GivingTuesday fundraiser on Facebook…HERE!

Dona Nobis Pacem – Grant Us Peace

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Blog 4 Peace Day is today! November 4th, 2017. Come Join Us!
This year’s theme is.: Finding Peace in Overwhelming Times.

For me, finding peace is a daily struggle.  Some days are harder than others. It seems that the older I get the more emotional I become. I cry at least once a day The smallest things make me cry or depress me.  I do my best to smile through it.

In my lifetime, i have lost my son, parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, and many friends. The hardest loss was the loss of my son. His death pushed me to the edge.  Each day I find myself on the brink of “screw this”.  And by that I mean, quitting my job, packing my dog and my bags, and going somewhere where no one can find me. Somewhere peaceful.

However, I do not there “some where peaceful” truly exists.  It is up to me to make a peaceful place.  So, each day, I find something to help me be at peace.

Knowing my daughter is happy and enjoying life, helps me find peace.

Hugging my dog, helps me find peace.

After a long day at work, coming home to see the wagging stubby tail of my dog and the smile on her face….her pure joy that I am home, helps me find peace.

A friend offering me a hug when she knows I am having a rough day, helps me find peace.

A friend I have never met in person, reaching out to me via text, Facebook or a phone call, helps me find peace.

Hanging out with family or friends to celebrate a special occasion or just barbecue, helps me find peace.

Basically, I have learned to greatly appreciate the small things in life. Because in this overwhelming times, the small things are what helps me find peace.
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“Peace does not mean an absence of conflicts; differences will always be there. Peace means solving these differences through peaceful means; through dialogue, education, knowledge; and through humane ways.” ~ Dalai Lama XIV
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October is National Adopt A Shelter Dog Month

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October is Adopt-A-Shelter-Dog Month.

Save a life: Adopt a dog! https://www.petfinder.com

There are a million good reasons to consider adopting a dog. Each year, millions of animals are waiting in shelters for someone to give them a safe, loving home. Please consider adopting a rescue animal or a dog from your local shelter. You will be saving a life and greatly improving yours. Dogs are amazing, supportive, and heroic companions who can make a huge difference in your world.

Visit your local shelter or visit legitimate breed-specific rescue groups. Find out what a shelter or rescue dog can bring to your life this October during Adopt-A-Dog Month